Do I Get Sad?

      People always said, “You always smiling!” When I’m around people, I get so much joy. When I play with kids, I enjoy it because I love kids, and maybe they can grow up with respect to people who are different.
      But I want to point out something that you may not know. I do get sad. That is why I like to keep busy. I keep thinking of things to do. During Mom’s funeral, my aunt told me to relax, but I needed to get the house ready for guests.
      Yes, I can be depressed, but I try to fight the devil off. After Dad died, I just went through everything physically but mentally I was tired. I wasn’t me, but I had to fight for my strength to regain. I had to remained focused on God and prayed. I regained my strength and am doing what I love.
      With Mom death, I felt different. I guess losing the first parent is rougher. Mom had prepared me, but you won’t get prepared to lose someone at any time. During the day, I will cry.
      I avoid crying in public because once I start, I can't control how loudly I cry.
      Yes, I get upset. If people push too far, I’ll let them hold it.
      Sorry, but I’m going to teach here. We’re all humans. Jesus was perfect, but He got sad and angry. We can feel sad, hurt or angry, but it shouldn’t run our lives. Jesus was tempted. He always referred to scripture to get rid of the devil. The devil loves when we are sad. When I can’t go on, I’ll go to God, and He gives me strength. I’m nothing without God. Just trust God to get the joy in you, and your life will change.